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| A lung destroyed by Covid |
It has been a long time now. It s been a real big pain.
I havent written in so long because for two months I was wading through the affects of covid. Every little problem you have with your body is accentuated and brought out. It s like open day, open house for all the evil problems in your body to drag you down.
First I had the covid - probably the omicron variation - and then I had it for two weeks. And then I went back to work but still felt tired so I got tested and... I still had it. T'hen, I had the after affects, the lingering affects. I had the coughing, the tiredness, the low energy. In all I was still fighting it and coughing into April. Over two months after I got the covid. What a pain. Yes.
I made 7 trips to 5 doctors with two x rays taken. First on my lungs and then on my back. Then a trip to a different lung docter to see if it was in my lungs. I did all sorts of fun breathing tests (the nurse yelled at me because I shut the machine down by coughing and she had to reboot the whole computer). And every night feeling these little hairs, what felt like hairs, in my throat twitching back and forth and knowing they were covered with phlegm which was making me cough. Sometimes feeling like throwing up in the morning.
I tell you, I am an old man now. My whole energy level was / is way down. When I was sick, I could stay up for a couple hours after lunch and then I had to go back to bed. Even after several months my energy is not what it was before the sickness and I havent started exercising again. Not exercising just lowers my energy level more and gets me fatter. I come home from work in the evening and I am tired and dont feel like doing anything more. How do you like that? I used to stay awake till Midnight reading articles and studying. Now, its dinner time and I would rather just go to bed. My wife says I am an old fart now. Ugh.
What does this have to do with being a father? Well that is obvious. What kind of father can you be when you just want to go to bed and sleep? I havent been very good at all. Finally after several months, late in March, there was a nice Sunday and I went to the park and played ping pong with my daughter for two hours. That was tiring, but it was great to be a father again.
It is really terrible that this virus takes everything from you and just leaves you a spent empty husk. I miss being a father. It has stolen that from me too. I havent been 40 per cent father... maybe.. maybe 20 per cent. Its terrible.
Please Dads, make the smart move and be careful and take care of yourself. You really dont want to lose the ability to be a good father. Dont try to be a Jon Wayne with this virus.
I know it is subsiding now. I know all countries pretty much are trying to get back to normal. Most people want to lead a semblance of normal lives now. Even mask wearing isnt necessary on public transport. Which feels weird to me. I feel like putting on my mask because I feel all these diseases floating around the compartment.
The point being, dont let your guard down. Being a father is much more important than trying to be some tough guy. Stay vigilant right now and get your shots. I know, lord I know, that the shot might not work. We have other variants wandering around and we dont know if they can be batted down with a dose, but let me tell
you YES, a vaccine shot, a booster will keep you out of the hospital. It could be the difference between the disease sending you to bed for a week or without it sending you to the grave for eternity.
¨Stay a father and for your kids do the right thing.
